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May. 7th, 2024 07:49 pm( [Story] Overcoming Trauma )
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So a few days ago, dad came to me with an idea for tackling my trauma regarding Ancient Gears, in the hopes that it will help me start associating them with more positive things.
Long story short, we've adopted a Ancient Gear Beast that was found wandering the streets of Domino City by SAI a few months ago.
The transition of having it in the house... hasn't been easy so far.
Just knowing it's presence is here has aggravated the nightmares I have, so I haven't been sleeping too well the past few nights, even though the beast has done nothing to cause it. In fact, it's incredibly docile and acts just like any other dog. Just... mechanical. It's also fairly timid and is easily scared.
I'm hoping the increase in nightmares is just a 'things get worse before they get better' kind of deal.
The cats we have in the house haven't taken a liking to Bolt either and tend to hiss and swipe at him. He's made of metal, so they don't hurt or damage him, but he still whimpers and cowers in a corner when they do this.
For now, I'm just slowly trying to integrate it's care into my daily routine, a bit at a time, so that both Bolt (which is what I named him) and I can slowly gain trust in each other.
I'll be honest, I'm feeling a little tired and overwhelmed with this change, especially since my mind and body keep making me feel like I'm unsafe in my own home with Bolt's presence, but I just have to keep trying to fight that feeling.
We're going to see how things are between myself and Bolt in a months time.
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[Post]
So a few days ago, dad came to me with an idea for tackling my trauma regarding Ancient Gears, in the hopes that it will help me start associating them with more positive things.
Long story short, we've adopted a Ancient Gear Beast that was found wandering the streets of Domino City by SAI a few months ago.
The transition of having it in the house... hasn't been easy so far.
Just knowing it's presence is here has aggravated the nightmares I have, so I haven't been sleeping too well the past few nights, even though the beast has done nothing to cause it. In fact, it's incredibly docile and acts just like any other dog. Just... mechanical. It's also fairly timid and is easily scared.
I'm hoping the increase in nightmares is just a 'things get worse before they get better' kind of deal.
The cats we have in the house haven't taken a liking to Bolt either and tend to hiss and swipe at him. He's made of metal, so they don't hurt or damage him, but he still whimpers and cowers in a corner when they do this.
For now, I'm just slowly trying to integrate it's care into my daily routine, a bit at a time, so that both Bolt (which is what I named him) and I can slowly gain trust in each other.
I'll be honest, I'm feeling a little tired and overwhelmed with this change, especially since my mind and body keep making me feel like I'm unsafe in my own home with Bolt's presence, but I just have to keep trying to fight that feeling.
We're going to see how things are between myself and Bolt in a months time.
